As I continue to explore my recent new fascination with "dark" music I am becoming more and more convinced of the following intuition: The dark & the light are not, as almost everybody casually supposes, two separate things.

If you think of them that way then, of course, that is what they become. And for most people that is how they will forever seem.

But, in reality, they are one thing (or perhaps, more accurately, two different perspectives on the same thing). And to those willing to look more deeply, they appear as they really are: As one.

I hope…

I've come to realize that in NYC, many of the most interesting places often have no signs on the front. You are either 'in the know' about them, or otherwise you could just walk past them a hundred times and never even suspect the exotic marvels lurking behind some nondescript door.

My project for this coming summer is to explore this underground culture of NYC (both light & dark aspects). I intend to put myself into situations where, like Alice, I'll be more likely to encounter the rabbits (either white, or perhaps, black) that will lead me down the rabbit…

Fri 25 Feb – Brown Out w/ MTV Desi

In arranging to attend the Feb 25 Android Lust performance in NY, I had to overcome what, at times, seemed an almost fateful series of obstacles: a bad case of the flu, serious work obligations etc etc.

I sensed I was somehow being put to a test of the will: Did I really want to break free of my comfortable past, and reach out to this unfamiliar distant flickering light? At each obstacle, my inchoate response was: 'Yes, and at whatever price.'

I sensed that my long trip in to Manhattan…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N0FdCKmKuvE

The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes 'Awww!'…
-Jack Kerouac (On The Road)

Fri 21 Jan – Amel Larrieux

This isn't really a review. It is, rather, merely a personal reflection inspired by attending this event:

I went into Manhattan on Sunday to meet a friend and hear Amel Larrieux at the Blue Note. It was certainly a pleasant evening, overalI. I enjoyed the music, at first, (she's very talented) but gradually grew aware that I was becoming bored. It occurred to me, then, that the entire exercise was, more than anything else, a kind of inertia (from making the reservations some weeks before, and onwards). It was behavior of mine from a…

At sixteen Sabina took moonbaths, first of all because everyone else took sunbaths, and second, she admitted, because she had been told it was dangerous. The effect of moonbaths was unknown, but it was intimated that it might be the opposite of the sun's effect.
The first time she exposed herself she was frightened. What would the consequences be? There were many taboos against gazing at the moon, many old legends about the evil effects of falling asleep in moonlight. She knew that the insane found the full moon acutely disturbing, that some of them regressed to animal habits of…