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I am surrounded by the ones you had sent to die
I am like them, a victim of your brutal cruelty. You showed no mercy
But I am the only one who grieves for you and pray to God
To save your soul from hell that will not release you.

You take your last breath and death enters your lifeless body
The heartbeat stops and a new life begins. You see me then.
From nothingness your glassy eyes stare in disbelief
You thought that the day I died had ended all your worries.

I stand still and watch your pain. The pain of death that’s everlasting
You cannot come with me. Your path is different from mine
Embrace this gift of never-ending life that brings only misery and sadness
At this final hour when you cannot lie I have come here to ask you. Why?

You had abandoned me. You had deceived my trust
It was not the sword you carefully chose that ended the life of mine
Your frightened little heart turned vile, I understood to die I must.
And there I was, knelt down, a beheaded corpse that’s now alive

He spoke no words. His eyes were fixed upon me. And yet I heard him saying ‘’Anne’’
And there on his death bed he wept with dried out tears. He knew he would not last
His misery and sorrows came at last and took away my lover, and my memories
A distant lute was playing a song from our past. ''Greensleeves was my heart of joy....''

Do you know what it means to be poor?
When your life has lost all of its senses
From the greatest pain you have endured
When last glimpse of hope has faded away
When thousands sorrows have stolen your day?

You walk in your sadness unnoticed to all
You talk, scream and laugh but yet, you're unheard
You seem like a cockroach in your lair of darkness
You are in Hell!
You have fallen into the depths of your own madness!

The God has forsaken your tortured soul
He's abandoned your heart
The hatred has poisoned your blood
You are poor indeed my friend, believe!
No food to eat and no faith to keep

They say I am a worthless writer...
I was exiled for my gift
I see a light in the darkest darkness
I write the truth no one believes!

Shifting gaze around the walls
I'm bitter, cold, I'm starving!
There is no heat to make me warm
Hysterically I am laughing

The stench is suffocating me
I wish to end my empty days
What’s there left for me? I close my eyes
And let myself to bleed to death

Distant music touched me gently
Its mournful mood possesses me
With the chords my soul awakened
Sharpest blade I aimed on me

I cannot take my breath!
How to make my hand to move!
Despair!
What have I done,
To deserve this pain of mine I must endure?

Who's there?
My voice sounds strange
I feel the presence in the room
I feel it's greatness, I fret!

Who's standing there,
Watching me in silence of my disgrace
I see his shadow in the doorway
O my God! I dropped the blade...

His beauty is beyond my words
I'm speechless and I'm stunned!
He is God and He is Devil
Whatever he might be, it's in disguise

His voice is sweet, his lips are hard
His eyes are full of fiery
In their depths I sold my soul
Seeking pleasured company

I know what it's like to be the rich one,
He promised world would bow to me
True to his word and own reasons
The world he owns right at my feet

The money pour into my pockets
I have it all I can't deny
But why is there still my sadness
Holding me, and make me cry

I suffer! Suffer! Suffer!
O greatest fool I am on earth!
I now know why all those pleasures
Will never quench my devil's thirst!

I now know why you have come
I now know true ugliness of lies
Your soul is black like pitch black waters
Your heart is living sin and mine!

Too late for me to call for God!
I made a deal, my loss is far too great!
I feel my heavy, burning wings, I cry!
I'm shouting to God ''I know my faith!''

My faith is you! And only you!
But cold and flames have taken me!
And voiceless mouth's still calling you...

I am in Hell! Neither dead nor I'm alive
I've lost my God whom I denied...
I see the lands of rare beauty
I see your heavens! They are not mine!

Forgive me Father for I have sinned...
I do not know this prayer by heart!
My hands are trembling and I fear
This is my last and only chance

To let you know how much I love you!
How much I do repent!
With all my heart I bleed for you
Dying thousands of deaths!

I see us all, in pride ,that hell itself has damned
Neglecting our only truthful God
But the dark monster....master mine...
Walk with you, hand in hand...Side by side.

I cast the spell to draw down the moon
Ask for its protection, healing and abundance
The candle’s lit. Its flame makes the crystals glow
And jasmine incense welcomes mystic presence

I close my eyes to visualize; its power’s growing,
The time has stopped, and vast layer of darkness
Has disappeared in the myriads of stars glowing
The moonlight entered circle I have cast

I’ve picked few river stones and hold them tight
Their warmth has healed my wounds and worries faded
It took away the emptiness that used to last
Returning love, forever banishing the hatred

Hail to thee, Sophia, Holy Spirit of the wise moon
You blessed my feelings and perceptions
I close my circle now, blow out candle, thanking you
Refilled with the feminine virtues of the beauty, grace and wisdom.

On the day so beautifully painted
By the colours of wintry mood
The shimmer of snow blinded me
The church bells rung it's sweet tune

Familiar walls, gleaming faces
Have disappeared in timeless waste
I cannot breath, my heart is restless
I feel no ground beneath my feet

I see a vision before my eyes
I sense it's scent, I hear it's call
The call from my distant, ancient past
My life I'd lived and died like all

The land is weeping for me quietly
Stones are silent, cold, reserved
River's whispering, I listen
It's voice rustles, welcome home..

I know those fields, I recognise...
Those horses galloping, their riders
I see through tears from my eyes
The walls of dungeon, coat of arms

My heart's at guard, my soul's quietened
Above my head the sullen, grieving skies
Below my feet the earth is soaking
My lover's blood, My lover's life

I know your name, I’ve always have
I feel my love for you, it's endless
I see no face, no feature clearly
Yet, see your soul and mine being one

I try to reach for you my knight
But distance seems to grow unmerciful
My vision started to fade into wintry night
Stealing away our past, and my future

The bells are ringing, I am stunned
And only heart is beating, screaming
I must embrace the emptiness of life
Without you, my paradise, my Eden

I've carried my love for you my lord
Through centuries, through lifetime
And now, you're calling me, come back my love
You are my heaven, God will guide you

I had a vision..It was real...
I lived, I died, and lived again...
Our love yet lives and never dies
I am forever yours
You are, in life and death forever mine..

Blood stained fists in my dry, voiceless mouth
Inside I scream from pain, my body’s broken and defeated
Why, my merciful Lord, oh why does it take so long
For my soul to cross over? Can’t you feel my desire to die?

I am burning so slow! Stubborn heartbeat I beg you to stop
End this torture for us all. Leave behind only ashes and dust
Bury deep all our memories in the soil that bleeds from our wounds
Let us step in to the Garden of Eden, to rest in heaven's kingdom at last

You have haunted us, and condemned our innocent souls
You’re liars and cowards intend to destroy the life itself and love
What have you done people? We worshiped the same heavenly god
But you are the ones who lit for us this hellish fire. Your god is false.

My tears are flowing, thick smoke has crept into my throat
All those faces pale and wild, are disfigured by their own madness
I called for love, protection upon their homes, i cast away their worries
I loved them all without asking in return not even single word of gratitude or coin

The flames are burning our flesh, from excruciating pain we scream and dying
Your possessed and wicked souls have no compassion of any kind
The executioners from depths of hell, the inquisitors of the holy church
Standing there and whisper prayers asking to the god to be the blessed sword

That will end our lives, clear air from our deadly breath and vile presence
But we all know the truth. And god himself has answered his daughters’ silent prayers
Freed from Malleus Maleficarium sentence, away from inhuman cruelty
We rise up to the moon into eternity, content at last, to bath in heaven's purity

I hear your footsteps. They are soft and quite.
Like graceful leafs that waltzing in the air
You are near me. Show yourself, be kind
Allow me to rest under the stars embrace
Wrapped in your stillness, in my roofless lair

Lay down with me and look into my soul
The sun's been hidden from it lately
Your darkness lights it up and makes it glow
Summoning shadows do the painting

A shiver went throughout my body
Your gentle touch upon my skin
The moonlight whispers ‘’I know your lover’’
I feel, you long for his dark kiss’’

Oh night! You know I have desired you.
You've held my soul, and sowed your bliss.
The sun is rising now, painting skies in blue
The passioned whispers fade away
And so does your last kiss...

I had a dream. Collision of two worlds
Where light had fought the darkest evil
For my worthless little soul
And all what beating heart could feel was fear.

I think I died so many times then
So desperate to hide away from burning flames
Those frightful mouths were full of ashes
They screamed in unison with hellish blaze

Who’s brought me back to make this nightmare last?
I am cold as ice and yet I am still alive
The war is far from over. Wake up I must
But like a wounded animal I start to run, in vain.

Suddenly the air froze and everything around me
Two voices roared in nothingness, I felt so small
How many deaths I’ve passed! My awful dream!
Or is it a blessing to be awake at last from life itself
By such disturbing, overwhelming call?

I sat in the middle what’s called evil and good
Embraced by sudden calmness of both
I know my race to be released from hell is over
The hell’s within me, as paradise in heaven
The life I live will in the end decide where I shall go....

With sudden cry my eyes flared open.
Descending darkness swallowed day
Bitterness of frozen air constrained body
I couldn’t move. Like a bird I struggled in vain.

Like a sun’s ray, I saw your smile was glowing
Yet my skin tasted tears from your eyes
You’re not smiling, you’re howling
With your head thrown back, facing skies.

You weep for me? Oh why I cannot breathe?
Excruciating pain has shattered fragile heart
You hold me close to you, your lips are near
Sweet caress, do linger softness of your dove.

You spoke to me in a quite gentle voice
Bestowed upon me the illusion of your love
Sweet tapestry of lies you’ve weaved
Its beauty dazzled me, I know it wasn’t real.

Wounded soul. Deadly weapon smites.
Your cry for me, like a father cries for his child
Oh, release my soul to soar up! Thrust your sword,
For my heart no longer can live in a lie.