jeudi 6 Nov 2014, 2h06m

Inspired by Nas's star wars.
Personality clashes. now I see the reality. It's Naïve to think it's just about knowledge or Science. Now I know why work stalls or underdevelopment looms in our government parastatals. Not sure it's just Nigeria though, the movie"dark matter " proves otherwise. People want to shine. It's about Ego. Sometimes I look and wonder how petty we are as humans. we'd kill a young up and coming man's enthusiasm just because of our insecurities. I'm there looking at all the inacurracies we let slip into our presentations and practice just because we don't want to admit we don't know or cant remember. The boss always has to be right. The boss always has to have the answer.
I also understand the local champion syndrome now. it's easy to stay sequestered in these corners and feed off the praise and adulation you get. No one questions you. You can generalize on issues that are markedly different in other parts of the world and nobody challenges you. That's why I called us "Heroes in the city of Dope". We're content with our positions and special treatment in this backward and underdeveloped part of the world. what we do is nowhere close to what happens in the developed world but we are happy as long as our position is sacrosanct. One can stay here for years and never grow , never add a modicum of new information while on a daily basis the world leaves us eons behind.
It makes me sad about practicing here. I fear i'll turn out to be another " unfulfilled genius" or a " tortured artist". Is it worth it? I'm paranoid about the world now. I trust no one. Every one is a "Taker " to me. They come for your intelligence, your meekness, your niceness , ursurp it and leave you and high and dry.