Articles → Okay definetly something is wrong in my head

Yeah for the people (if there's any that does it) that reads this shit that I write, I gotta say something is wrong with me for sure. Really I mean come on I'm still here cutting my veins (not literally) for a woman, yeah most people would say it's normal dude you're in love (if you're here reading this 1st entrance of the journal, read the two 1st so you know what's going on).

KURWA! seriosuly FUCK THIS SHIT! I'm here laying on my bed it's 5: 35 pm of the 30 of December of 2010, one day before the year is over and I can't fucking get her out of my head, I'm listening to Guns N' Roses fucking blowing out my ears and my brain, singing my lungs out, hitting the wall at random times with November Rain and to Used To Love Her wondering why the fuck I can't get her out!

Seriosuly she said literally "I've never wanted anything from you or anything with you, so lets try to be friends" KURWA! You could have said that in the begining, you could have saved me all of this and saved yourself all this fucking time wasted. Where is the so called love you said, where is that I want to be with you, you make me happy? WHERE THE FUCK IS IT?

And yet here I am stupid foolishly still loving her, can't I just cut my chest wide open, grab my heart and throw it away? Open my skull, examine my brain and cut the part of it where the memory of her is? Wish I could, but I've learned with her wishing is just a fucking white lie, reality smacks you with the truth...shame that even if it smacks me so hard it makes my teeth fall down..I can't get her out...

And lol just saw in her homepage... "Best fiance in the world with the cutest puppy" and a pic of the guy and the dog...the doggie is cute but well what I'm complaining all about? It's my fault..my stupid ass fault, why would I even try something when she is already taken? No one to blame but my stupid self... like it says in Through Glass When thought came from the heart never did right from the start.