Well here I am, once again writting stuff that no one reads but my best friend and lol myself. But like if I cared, the point of all of this is to take everything out, feel a bit clean with all the shit I have inside.

Lately things have changed, I've changed, I want to be different and I'm going to be different, this 2011 I'm going back to the sXe, no addictions and well gotta say I had a big addiction last year….her.

I've been trying to control myself, to let her slip away, to not think about her…

Yeah for the people (if there's any that does it) that reads this shit that I write, I gotta say something is wrong with me for sure. Really I mean come on I'm still here cutting my veins (not literally) for a woman, yeah most people would say it's normal dude you're in love (if you're here reading this 1st entrance of the journal, read the two 1st so you know what's going on).

KURWA! seriosuly FUCK THIS SHIT! I'm here laying on my bed it's 5: 35 pm of the 30 of December of 2010, one day before the…

just a few days have passed since the last time I wrote on this journal, I really appreciate and thank Black_Symphony for caring in reading what I wrote even if she didn't have to, Thank you and thanks for the comment, helped a lot.

The stuff I wrote on my last and 1st journal have ended, not int he way I expected or wanted, but they ended. Right now I feel like Crash, you know I'm never a person that holds a grude against someone and I personally don't hold anything against her, I mean for something I wanted…

so I've never written anything here 1st time ever, but well I'm feeling like writting right now. Things have been a bit fucked up lately, lets see how many people hasn't been through a similar situation that is causing me write this:

A beautiful unique amazing girl, perfect in every single way that you ever wanted or wished.
A fiance that she is engaged to no more than 8 months of engagment, that lives far from her but they've been together for 3 years now.

You (me) totally in lvoe with her and she claiming she wants you too, but…