• Songs that starred for me in the USA

    17 jui. 2012, 20h13m

    Gazpacho - Hell Freezes Over IV
    Radiohead - Motion Picture Soundtrack
    Evanescence - The Change
    A Perfect Circle - The Outsider (my top star)
    Stream of Passion - Street Spirit (came randomly [on shuffle] exactly when I wanted and needed ♥)
    Adagio - The Stringless Violin
    A Perfect Circle - Weak and Powerless
    Evanescence - End of the Dream

    whole albums:
    Radiohead - The Bends
    Red Hot Chili Peppers - One Hot Minute
    My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge

    It was just too long for a shout :P
  • My Owned Albums

    26 jan. 2012, 22h01m

    I put them here only for the connection to their pages :P

    Britney Spears - Oops!... I Did It Again
    Laura Pausini - Resta in ascolto (the only one I bought without checking)
    מטרופולין - מטרופולין
    Avril Lavigne - Let Go
    Evanescence - Fallen
    Björk - Homogenic
    Queen - Queen II
    Nightwish - Once
    Evanescence - The Open Door
    Epica - Consign to Oblivion
    Nightwish - Oceanborn
    Epica - The Phantom Agony
    Within Temptation - The Silent Force
    Radiohead - Amnesiac
    Epica - The Divine Conspiracy
    Radiohead - Hail to the Thief
    Within Temptation - The Heart of Everything
    ערן צור - חותך בחתך הזהב
    Within Temptation - Mother Earth + Enter
    Radiohead - The Bends
    Nightwish - Century Child
    Tristania - Beyond the Veil
    My Chemical Romance - The Black Parade + Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge
    Tori Amos - From the Choirgirl Hotel
    After Forever - Invisible Circles
    Sonata Arctica - Reckoning Night
    Muse - Origin of Symmetry
    After Forever - Prison of Desire + Decipher
    מתי כספי 2
    Mika - Life in Cartoon Motion
    Björk - Vespertine
    uneXpect - In A Flesh Aquarium
    Atrox - Contentum
    Manu Chao - Proxima Estacion: Esperanza
    65daysofstatic - One Time for All Time
    Lacuna Coil - Unleashed Memories
    Lacuna Coil - In a Reverie
    To-Mera - Delusions
    Sonata Arctica - Unia
    Secret Chiefs 3 - Book M
    Skunk Anansie - Post Orgasmic Chill
    Yeah Yeah Yeahs - It's Blitz!
    Rasputina - Oh Perilous World
    The Gathering - Mandylion + Nighttime Birds + How to Measure a Planet? + If_then_else
    (David Dunn - The Sound of Light in Trees)
    The Gathering - Souvenirs
    Red Hot Chili Peppers - One Hot Minute
    Miles Davis - Bitches Brew
    random gift - Portishead - Dummy
    The Gathering - Home
    Porcupine Tree - Fear of a Blank Planet
    Interpol - Our Love to Admire
  • Me and the music - a shallow romance?

    29 nov. 2011, 19h31m

    I see this is the most relevant thing to tell- I "only" have fun of music. It never touches me deeply, never makes me think, never changes my mood. I feel about it almost like I feel about food- it can be a lot of fun, but no deep strong emotions.
    I don't feel the connection of music to the real world, though I know that many times songs come from real thoughts/feeling. This is "only" beautiful sounds for me.
    -and real thoughts and feelings- I can feel them from someone else only when they just say it simply. without mysterious sentences, without rhymes, without "artificial" melody. straight to the point.
    Recently I became aware that many other people really cry of music, identify, "go to another world"... and it made me jealous that I can't feel any of these, it seems so great...
    People also made me think that I don't feel about music in the "right" way, because the music is supposed to raise the emotions the writer/singer/player felt. Still I can't force myself to feel it, and my feeling "feel right" for me, when I just forget about the other people "out there". -- edit: I forgot to mention that usually I don't even pay attention to the lyrics
    Music is one of my biggest pleasures. I can dance of happiness because a song is so beautiful. Yet I don't feel extremely strong emotions, but so what? I enjoy music a lot, just not that way.
    In general, nothing makes me "go to another world". but it's still not that bad, I can live happily without it. ....and most important- without the jealousy.
  • My top 10 useful songs

    4 sept. 2011, 9h39m

    Useful = not that good, but very cool to listen
    (the true meaning? what the writers meant? I understand but don't FEEL it)

    10. Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Shame and Fortune (funny+cool)

    9. Within Temptation - Murder (funny)

    8. Lacuna Coil - Closer (cool)

    7. Epica - Replica (funny)

    6. Nightwish - The Kinslayer (cool)

    5. Muse - Supermassive Black Hole (funny)

    4. Within Temptation - Sinéad (funny)

    3. Within Temptation - Faster (funny)

    2. The Gathering - Great Ocean Road (cute+cool)

    1. Rasputina - Possum of the Grotto (funny+cool)

  • I'm frustrated about the concerts again...

    23 août 2011, 0h26m

    (I did have fun in Epica's concert as I wrote, but not a lot...)

    Lately I've had some "frustration attacks" from time to time.

    Quotations from my mind:
    "Why can't I enjoy concerts, like "everyone" else does?
    Why do the people in the crowd have to sings? Don't they want to hear the musicians?
    What is so "live" about it? The musicians still stand quite far from you, and they don't notice many individuals.
    I usually barely hear (and see) the performers, and "strangely" this reduces my joy..."

    I though that the problem can be that I try to find the sense, and maybe there's no one...
    Maybe it's a constant feature- or you enjoy shows, or you don't. Maybe it doesn't change by the time, and you can't "practice" it. Like trying to "learn to like" a kind of food you don't like.
    The fact that most of music lovers enjoy concerts, doesn't mean that people who don't enjoy them are handicapped. They are just unusual, and have one less thing to enjoy in life.
    The real problem is that I can't accept it, I feel like it's fatal. I have to really understand that it doesn't matter that much, and to let it go.
    I had a similar thing about sex. For now, I don't feel any desire/need to do it. Maybe I'll never want it. For a while I was upset about this, but shortly it was totally over. I don't care much if I'm going to ever like it.
    I wonder why, when it comes to shows, I care that much. Maybe because I do enjoy music, and the shows are "supposed" to be an "upgraded" experience. And, as opposed to sex, I'm quite "attracted" to shows. It's just not as good in reality as it is in my imagination...

    The thing which I can practice, is saying:
    It's NOT important if I enjoy concerts or not!

    finally, my group (meanwhile it has only me)- People who don't enjoy concerts much
  • First + Love + Favourite

    15 juin 2011, 13h40m

    I saw a list like this and wanted to do my own. I did something similar here before, but still...
    For my top 25 artists (most played in - 1) the first song I've heard, 2) the one who made me fall in love, and 3) my favourite.

    1 - Wish I Had an Angel (I didn't like it)
    2 - Sleeping Sun (not sure)
    3 - Sleeping Sun

    1 - the singles from Fallen (together) (I didn't like them)
    2 - (maybe) Everybody's Fool
    3 - Lithium

    1 - really don't remember
    2 - Blank Infinity
    3 - Blank Infinity + Façade of Reality

    Within Temptation
    1 - don't remember
    2 - The Swan Song / See Who I Am / another one...
    3 - The Promise / The Dance

    1 - they were all around :P let's say Love of My Life / We Are the Champions
    2 - my memory is quite gone
    3 - The Show Must Go On

    Laura Pausisi
    1 - several songs from "best of" collection
    2 - Un'Emergenza d'Amore
    3 - Come Se Non Fosse Stato Mai Amore / Benedetta Passione

    After Forever
    1 - memory is gone
    2 - Leaden Legacy
    3 - I can't decide between Dreamflight / Monolith of Doubt / My Pledge of Allegiance #1, Beautiful Emptiness, Life's Vortex

    Tori Amos
    1 - probably Crucify
    2 - Digital Ghost
    3 - Digital Ghost / China / one from Under the Pink

    1 - It's Oh So Quiet (I didn't like it)
    2 - Bachelorette (?)
    3 - Bachelorette (?) :P

    Lacuna Coil
    1 - memory is gone
    2 - Enjoy the Silence (?)
    3 - Distant Sun, In Visible Light

    Avril Lavigne
    1 - Complicated (?)
    2 - I'm With You
    3 - I'm With You / Unwanted / Don't Tell Me

    1 - memory is gone
    2 - Angina (?)
    3 - Angina / A Sequel of Decay

    My Chemical Romance
    1 - The Ghost of You (didn't like it)
    2 - generally The Black Parade
    3 - Famous Last Words / The Ghost of You

    Britney Spears
    1 - all the song from her two first albums, together :P
    2 - ...Baby One More Time
    3 - What U see (Is What U Get) / I Can't Make You Love Me

    The Beatles
    1 - they were and still are all around :P can't recall one song
    2 - never had a chance to fall in love
    3 - While My Guitar Gently Weeps, Eleanor Rigby

    Manu Chao
    1 - Me Gustas Tu (I liked it)
    2 - same ^
    3 - don't know

    1 - היא לא אומרת כלום = She Doesn't Say Anything (I didn't like it)
    2 - all the first album, Metropolin
    3 - "Yapan" (Japan)

    Sonata Arctica
    1 - memory is gone
    2 - Still Loving You
    3 - Don't Say a Word / For the Sake of Revenge

    1 - memory is gone
    2 - To Mega Therion (?)
    3 - The Perennial Sophia / something from Vovin (final result TBA)

    1 - must be Creep or Karma Police
    2 - Amnesiac as a Whole
    3 - Dollars & Cents, Lucky

    1 - Grace Kelly
    2 - Grace Kelly
    3 - My Interpretation / Any Other World

    Kelly Clarkson
    1 - Since You Been Gone (I didn't like it)
    2 - Breakaway
    3 - Judas

    The Gathering
    1 - Strange Machines - Nighttime Birds (edit) (I didn't like it)
    2 - Strange Machines
    3 - Strange Machines + On Most Surfaces - Home

    Red Hot Chili Peppers
    1 - maybe Californication
    2 - [memory is gone]
    3 - One Hot Minute (?)

    1 - Hysteria / Bliss
    2 - ?
    3 - Showbiz


    There are some artists below the top 25 that I like more than some of the above, but rules are rules :P
  • My Musical Comebacks

    10 juin 2011, 10h11m

    Many of the artists I like- I heard a few of their stuff, then neglected them for several years, and then started to explore and loved what I found.
    But now I'll write about artists/albums I listened to seriously, and didn't like. And After several years I checked them again and loved.

    ~ Therion
    I checked them in 2007, along with After Forever. I listened to Vovin, Gothic Kabbalah, Sirius B+Lemuria and Crowning of Atlantis (I was very enthusiastic in the beginning...) . After many listens, I decided it's not for me. meanwhile.
    I checked them again in 2008, with Secret Of The Runes. After some listens I was bored.
    I checked some stuff of them from time to time on YouTube.
    In one time in 2011, I really got into it. I took Vovin, and liked it very much. Then I took Gothic Kabbalah and liked. I decided to Check all the rest of their albums.

    ~ The Gathering - How to Measure a Planet? + If_then_else
    After I checked "Mandylion" (maybe in 2009) and loved it, I came to "measure a planet". I was bored of most of it. Then I took "If then else", and again was bored of it.
    Somewhere in 2010/beginning of 2011 I took Nighttime Birds and liked.
    In May 2011 I watched some videos of the band from 1996, and fell in love with Anneke :P It brought me to pay attention to the band. After several days the enthusiasm descended, and I turned to check the albums I neglected.
    I took samples on YouTube and thought "measure a planet" and "if_then_else" are 'still' boring, and actually The Gathering stopped to be good after Nighttime Birds.
    But - after a tiny romance with Saturnine I took "If_then_else" and quite liked it. After looking in YouTube again, I got an impression that "measure a planet" is good too, and I took it. Currently I'm in love :P
    Amazing how I can change my mind...

    ~ Porcupine Tree - Fear of a Blank Planet
    I checked it some years ago (2007/8), along with "In Absentia". At the end I was bored.
    In May 2011 I took "blank planet" again, and I like all the songs :)
    (I'm still not very impressed by In Absentia)

    Kamelot has come back too, but I don't love them "officially" :P
    It's just nice to listen to.

    Dream Theater has come back, but the comeback is still not successful enough.
  • Epica's show- the unbelievable happened :D

    15 déc. 2008, 21h30m

    I enjoyed! Not very very much, but more than zero and this is great XD

    I think it's maybe beacuse now I'm a little bit less shy, so I could be more opened to the show and to 'connect' to it.

    And to think that I decided to go to it only 5 days before it, and then it was just because I didn't have a choise 'cause I went to the army...

    Mark <3
  • Now (again...) it's for sure - I just can't enjoy shows :\

    7 oct. 2007, 18h02m

    Yesterday I was in the show of Nightwish which I told about in the end of my previous post about the previous show I was in.
    And again, it was exactly the same scenario as in the previous time- the show was very good, but I almost didn't enjoy it. Again, I thought it would be great for me, but it was great for everyone except for me. Again, I visited the band's forum and the most common word people wrote about the show was "amazing". Again, during the show I felt OK, but when I got home I realized that it is the same 'tragedy' again.
    When I think about and imagine a show, any show of someone I like which I hear that will be, I think it must be a lot of fun for me, and when it starts, it's all over. It's like for me, the show is great until it happens... and it's not that I see that it's not as good as I thought, becuse I imagine it as it is... The same thing is so great when I imgine it, and so little when it's real... And it doesn't have such large difference in other things I imagine to myself, only with this it's totlly different.
    The additional problem is, that I just can't find a reason for this... The only thibg I can think about is the things that could make me enjoy the show. I can always say that maybe it's because "they're just playing and singing, it's not a big deal...", but when I think about this, it's special for me to see them and to hear them live...
    After all of this, I just can think "What's wrong? Why don't I enjoy something I actually (or allegedly...) like very much and am so enthusiastic about; or the opposite: Why am I so enthusiastic about a thing I actually don't like, even after all the times I felt like it was nothing when I had it? And I still can't find a reason...
  • some details about my music

    17 sept. 2007, 17h17m

    I just like to write things like "my favourite...", so here are some details...
    I'll write about my favourite artists first, and then others I will want

    Laura Pausini
    Favourite song: E Ritorno da Te / Benedetta Passione / Come se non fosse stato mai amore
    Favourite album: Resta in Ascotlo
    How I knew her: I saw some videoclips in a telenovelas channel and I liked them.
    * addition- When I saw the clip of "Incancellabile" I wondered in which language she is singing, and I thought it is a very strange and funny language ;)

    E Ritorno Da Te
    Benedetta passione
    Come Se Non Fosse Stato Mai Amore

    Favourite song: Everybody's Fool / Lithium
    How I knew them: My class mate told me she loved them when I came to her home to take some homework I missed. I checked some stuff and didn't like it very much. After a long time, I came back to them again, and then I already liked the songs very much.

    Everybody's Fool

    Favourite song: Creek Mary's Blood / Gethsemane / Sleeping Sun
    Favourite album: Once
    How I knew them: I just downloaded some random stuff, and I found it interesting.

    Creek Mary's Blood (Album Version)
    Sleeping Sun

    Favourite song: Show must go on
    How I knew them: I knew about them for a long time, but I never checked their music. Two years ago, an Isreli singer who I love (as a man, not as a singer...) prticipated in show for children with a song competition and a story, where he was invited as a guest-star to sing a medley of some of Queen's most famous songs, usually translated. After that, I was interested in the band who performed the songs originally, and listened to some songs. Firstly I thought they're boring, but as always, in the end I liked them and searched more songs.

    The Show Must Go On


    Favourite song: Blank infinity (also the first I liked) [edit: +Facade of Reality]
    (Until this moment I thought it's "BLACK Infinity"!)

    Blank Infinity

    Britney Spears
    Favourite song: What you see (is what you get) / Can't make you love me
    How I knew her: I had a close friend who was her fan, and she put Britney's CDs at her home all day

    What U See (Is What U Get)
    Can't Make You Love Me

    Backstreet Boys
    Favourite song: Incomplete
    How I knew them: Some of my class mates played their songs in the class


    Within Temptation
    Favourite song: See who I am [edit: +The Promise, The Dance, The Swan Song]
    How I knew them: I heard about them in a Nightwish forum, and checked some songs. At first, I felt they're annoying, so I stopped to listen to them. After some time, I heard the first single from the new album, "What have you done" an I liked it a little. Then I downloaded songs again and this time I liked them.

    See Who I Am
    What Have You Done (feat. Keith Caputo)


    (from now I'll write only the favourite songs)

    Shania Twain:
    Forever and for Always
    From This Moment On
    I'm Gonna Getcha Good!

    Paola & Chiara:
    Viva El Amor!
    Vamos a Bailar

    Black Eyed Peas:
    My Humps
    Fly Away


    Lacuna Coil:
    Honeymoon Suite
    Distant Sun
    [the cover of] Enjoy the Silence

    Dollars & Cents