• Set lists @ Dominion, Dublin 26.03.2011

    27 avr. 2011, 20h31m

    Again, fulls et lists for all the Ds here:

    DJ Ara aka Mari Harju 9:30 - 10:00

    Voltaire - When You're Evil
    Ghostfire - The Last Steampunk Waltz
    Black Tape For A Blue Girl - All My Lovers
    Unextraordinary Gentlemen - Ever After
    Dandelion Wine - Muscle Memory
    The Death Notes - In The Spider's Web
    Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Isis
    The Daughters Of Bristol - The Ave.

    DJ Ara aka Mari Harju 10:30 - 10:45

    Zeromancer - Doctor Online
    Kraftwerk - The Model
    Depeche Mode - Wrong (R)
    Apoptygma Berzerk - Shine On

    DJ Ara aka Mari Harju 12:00 - 12:30

    And One - Dancing In The Factory
    Deutsch-Amerikanische Freundschaft - Der Mussolini
    Caustic - White Knuckle Head Fuck (Feat. Faderhead)
    Aesthetic Perfection - The Siren
    Tyske Ludder - Der Androgyne Held
    Reaper - She Is A Devil And A Whore
    Pop Will Eat Itself - Def.Con.One

    DJ Ara aka Mari Harju 1:30 - 1:45

    Icon Of Coil - Remove/Replace
    And One - Technoman (Live) (R)
    Dead Or Alive - You Spin Me Round (Like A Record) (R)

    DJs Ara aka Mari Harju And The Siren aka Sinead And Paul Byrne (Tagging) 2:10 - 2:20

    (S) Soft Cell - Sex Dwarf
    (P) Bangles - Walk Like An Egyptian
    (A) Editors - Papillon
    (P) The Cure - Why Can't I Be You?
  • Srt lists @ Dominion Dublin 26.02.2011

    27 avr. 2011, 20h28m

    Fulls et lists fo all the DJS at

    DJ Ara aka Mari Harju 10:00 - 10:30

    Kommunity FK - To Blame
    Luxury Stranger - Marlene
    Christ Vs. Warhol - Cross Of Lorraine
    Rhombus - Anywhere
    Joy Division - Dead Souls
    Love And Rockets - Mirror People
    The Danse Society - We're So Happy
    The March Violets - Crow Baby

    DJ Ara aka Mari Harju 11:30 - 12:00

    Daft Punk - Derezzed
    Emilie Autumn (R) - Opheliac
    Amanda Palmer - Leeds United
    Dead Can Dance - The Arcane
    The Merry Thoughts - Pale Empress (R)
    The Sisters Of Mercy - Alice
    Fields Of The Nephilim - Power
    Siouxsie And The Banshees - Peek-A-Boo
    The Cure - Why Can't I Be You?
    DJ Bryan Carter 1:00 - 1:30

    DJ Ara aka Mari Harju 1:30 - 2:00

    A Plus D - Hollaback Headhunter (Gwen Stefani Vs. Front 242)
    Pop Will Eat Itself - Ich Bin Ein Auslander
    Specimen - Syria
    Siouxsie And The Banshees - Israel
    Bauhaus - Kick In The Eye
    The Cure - Just Like Heaven
  • Set lists @ Dominion Dublin 11.12.10

    5 fév. 2011, 12h00m

    Just realied had not posted these... ooops! from my birthday / Faderhead afterparty

    DJ Ara 10:45 - 11:15

    The Merry Thoughts - Pale Empress
    Daft Punk - Derezzed
    Front Line Assembly - Angriff
    19ninetynine - iThink
    Deviant UK - Wreckhead (Grendel Remix)
    And One - Wasted

    DJ Ara 12:15 - 12:45

    Tyske Ludder - Canossa
    KMFDM - Anarchy
    :Wumpscut: - We Believe, We Believe
    KLOQ (R) - You Never Know
    Nitzer Ebb - Murderous

    DJs Ara And Paul Fitzpatrick And Conor (Tagging) 1:45 - 2:30

    (A) The Horatii - Island Of The Zombie Women
    (C) Rob Zombie - Living Dead Girl
    (P) Siouxsie And The Banshees - Arabian Knights
    (A) Pop Will Eat Itself - Def.Con.One
    (C) Nine Inch Nails - The Hand That Feeds
    (P) The Cure - Play For Today
    (A) Deutsch-Amerikanische Freundschaft - Der Mussolini
    (C) Colony 5 - My World
    (P) The Sisters Of Mercy - Alice
    (A) Editors - Papillon
    (C) Depeche Mode - Personal Jesus (Alien Implant Abduction Mix)
  • Set lists @ Dominion Dublin 01.01.11

    12 jan. 2011, 1h32m

    FIrst batch of the year! :D

    Guilty Strangers - Guilty Bystander
    The Bolshoi - A Way
    Tones On Tail - Christian Says
    Luxury Stranger - Substance
    Ghost Dance - Last Train
    New Skin - Cherry Flowers And Bedroom Songs (Soil & Eclipse Remix)
    The Birthday Massacre - Video Kid
    Cinderella Effect - Call The Ships To Port
    Siouxsie And The Banshees - This Wheel's On Fire
    The Merry Thoughts - I Wanna Be Your Dog
    Killing Joke - European Super State
    Rhombus - 4472

    Alien Sex Fiend - The Girl At The End Of My Gun
    Star Industry - Nineties
    The Cult - Fire Woman
    The Cure - Boys Don't Cry

    The Prodigy - Take Me To The Hospital
    Deutsch-Amerikanische Freundschaft - Der Mussolini
    Turnbull A.C's - We Can Drink Without Having Fun
    Christian Death - Romeo's Distress
    The Damned - New Rose

    Wayne G - Twisted (Featuring Stewart Who?)
    Fields Of The Nephilim - Power
    The Sisters Of Mercy - Alice
    Dead Kennedys - Holiday In Cambodia
  • DJ sets @ Dominion 13.11.2010

    7 déc. 2010, 0h07m

    DJ Ara 11:00 - 11:30
    Cellmod - Crisis (Shiv-R Remix)
    Nine Inch Nails - Capital G (Epworth Phones) (R)
    Ghostfire - The Last Steampunk Waltz
    Emilie Autumn - Dead Is The New Alive
    Siouxsie And The Banshees - Hall Of Mirrors
    Rhombus - Anywhere
    The Damned - Melody Lee

    DJ Ara 12:45 - 1:30
    Ministry - Jesus Built My Hotrod
    Front Line Assembly - Millennium (R)
    Deutsch-Amerikanische Freundschaft - Der Mussolini
    A Plus D - Hollaback Headhunter (Gwen Stefani Vs. Front 242)
    Nitzer Ebb - Let Your Body Learn
    Pop Will Eat Itself - Ich Bin Ein Auslander (R)
    The Prodigy - Colours
    Colony 5 - My World
    Covenant - Call The Ships To Port
    Apoptygma Berzerk - Non-Stop Violence (R)
    Aesthetic Perfection (R) - The Siren
  • DJ sets @ Dominion October 02 2010

    27 oct. 2010, 16h51m

    DJ Ara 10.30-11.00
    Dandelion Wine - Muscle Memory
    John Ruiz And Eleusyve Productions - Sweet Seasons
    Pretentious, Moi? - The Garden
    Rhombus - Anywhere
    The Dandy Warhols - She Sells Sanctuary
    Luxury Stranger - Marlene
    Veil Veil Vanish - Anthem For A Doomed Youth

    DJ Ara 12:00 - 12:30

    Cellmod - Crisis (Shiv-R Remix)
    Covenant (R) - Theremin (Club Edit)
    Method Cell - Your Weakness
    :Wumpscut: (R) - We Believe, We Believe
    Front 242 - Headhunter
    Skinny Puppy - Assimilate
    Alien Sex Fiend - I Walk The Line (R)

    DJ Ara 1:00 - 1:30

    Killing Joke - Fresh Fever From The Skies
    The Damned - New Rose
    New Model Army - Poison Street
    Siouxsie And The Banshees - Slowdive
    The Cure - Boys Don't Cry
    Visage - Fade To Grey
    Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark - Enola Gay
    Soft Cell - Tainted Love
    Duran Duran - Girls On Film
    Faderhead - Destroy, Improve, Rebuild
  • Playlists @ Dominion 14.08.2010

    18 août 2010, 16h47m

    DJ Ara 10.00-10.30

    19ninetynine - Vagabonds
    Client - Lights Go Out
    Helalyn Flowers - I'm Human, Defective
    New Skin - Cherry Flowers And Bedroom Songs (Soil & Eclipse Remix)
    Switchblade Symphony - Witches
    Amanda Palmer - Astronaut: A Short History Of Nearly Nothing
    Kitty In A Casket - Cannibal Paradise

    DJ Ara 12:00 - 12:30

    The Wake - Christine
    Fields Of The Nephilim - Preacher Man
    Public Image Limited - This Is Not A Love Song
    Pop Will Eat Itself - Def.Con.One
    Aesthetic Perfection - The Ones (R)
    Front Line Assembly - Angriff
    Tyske Ludder - Psychoaktiv

    DJ Ara 1:30 - 2:00

    Duran Duran - The Wild Boys
    Nitzer Ebb - Let Your Body Learn
    Deutsch-Amerikanische Freundschaft (R) - Alle Gegen Alle
    The Prodigy - Colours
    XPQ-21 - White And Alive
    Icon Of Coil - Shelter
    Grendel (R) - Harsh Generation
  • Playlists for Dominion 12.06.2010

    17 juin 2010, 17h01m

    So here is what I played.


    Bella Morte - Fades Like A Song
    Bitter Ruin - Chewing Gum (Live)
    The Dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism
    Los Carniceros Del Norte - Doctor Caligari
    Christian Death - Sick Of Love
    Specimen - Nothing Lasts Forever
    New Model Army - Poison Street
    The Pixies - Monkey Gone To Heaven
    16Volt - Dead Weight
    Nine Inch Nails - The Perfect Drug

    11.30 to 12.00

    Freezepop - Duct Tape My Heart (Chinese Theatre Remix)
    Paul Hardcastle - 19
    Cabaret Voltaire - I Want You
    Leæther Strip - Japanese Bodies
    Turnbull A.C's - We Can Drink Without Having Fun
    KLOQ - We're Just Physical
    Pop Will Eat Itself - Ich Bin Ein Auslander (R)


    Sonata Arctica - World In My Eyes (R)
    And One (R) - Metalhammer
    Combichrist - Give Head If You Got It
    Covenant (R) - We Want Revolution
    [X]-RX - Stage 2
    Grendel - Chemicals + Circuitry

    Not a bad night. Only screwed up one track - there was suppsoed to be Kraftwerk in there! and if you think the last bit was playing it overtly safe with the mainstream industrial? Dude before me played Nirvana, GnR and Queen. Q.E.D.
  • WGT 2010: Or, See Ara Lose Her Shit

    31 mai 2010, 20h00m

    Fri 21 May – 19. Wave-Gotik-Treffen

    Under the cut, roughly 3300 word report of WGT.


    WGT: Day 1, Thursday:

    So I left Dublin with [info]silicondragon who was on his way to Prague. We made it to the airport - after less than 2 hours of sleep for me -and went our separate ways.
    On the plane I saw +plenty familiar people - Including that one guy I run into EVERYWHERE like Leeds, Utrecht, WGT and London, someone else I know, and a few other people I only knew by sight.

    Why yes, we were all in the same train to Leipzig too.

    I found my friendly accommodation lady soon enough st the station, and headed to the house where I had a room all to my ownsies for the duration. I got changed, and headed off to Agra to get me tickets...

    Only to lose euro 200 on my way there. Suffice to ay, I as NOT Amused by this. *sigh* this set the tone of this trip, somewhat...

    After a quick trip back, some angst, and regrouping, I did go get my tickets and went to the Dark Flower. I had never been there before, and I enjoyed it - one of the DJs was a Darkling! so we had a quick hug and hello moment. (I also may sort of have left a message to be played in the show. I,, um, sort of am too scared to listen to the podcast to find out what I said. Yet. XD

    Evenrtually Is tumbled home, and slept.

    Day 2: Friday I'm not in love

    Friday! I woke up, got ready, and headed out eventually. Chose some nice pink-black bondage pants and a Sisters of Mercy t-shirt :D at this point, my phone stopped working so alas, my plans to meet up with [info]macpain did not really work out. at this junction anyway... But, I did meet up with Inma! the Spanish girl I knew form Dublin and had missed like CRAZY, and her friends form Spain also.

    After some food and a quick spin of Agra shopping area of doooom , where I got a bag and was tempted by goggles, we went to see Zeromancer.

    Oh boy, Zeromancer. I recognized 3 songs, thought "this is a total rip-off of X"#a few times, and nearly drowned in my own drool. Not a bad show! :D

    From this, I ran to Werk II where I had never been before, for Cinderella Effect. I have to say, it is a great venue.. and damn but Cinderella Effect? Blew me away. they were EXCELLENT, and I am so glad I know they exist! :D

    Afterwards, Off I went at his point to see Kirillan camera. One of the bands I was really waiting to see. I made it in about halfway through Conjure One's set, and I was quite impressed by them as well. Kirillian camera? now they were amazing. I am not very familiar with them but it was a very solid gig and I enjoyed myself a lot.
    Afterwards, I talked with this one German bloke whose phone I had asked to borrow, and suffice to say once we'd had our minds blown by Brendan Perry, we, ah, took off together. Brendan Perry, for the record, was amazing. It was one of those “wait how can it be over yet two hours totally did not pass!” kind of gigs :D

    .. what is it with me and Germans at festivals?

    Saturday: WORLD GOTH DAY! :D

    So after I wake up in the camping area with no clue how i got there with the worm kind of wristband, I went back to my accommodation.. and realized, I do not in fact have the keys. Yes, I had lost my fucking keys. This caused a lot of trouble for me later on since I never got a replacement. But I did, in fact, eventually get in, and a get myself ready for day 2 of bands and goodyness. For the WGD; I was wearing pinstripe form head to toe :D

    First band of the day was Spanish death rock: Los carniectros Del Nostre who were angry, energetic, and fun. I had a great time - met up with Inma as well as some other people who were friends of friends there. And it was amazing. I also saw a cool jacket with the legend "too old to die young" worn by a guy with a grey 'hawk.

    Next stop for me was to run, run like the wind! to Werk 2 for.. Gene Loves Jezebel. Who, as it turns out, were stuck in traffic so could not play. Boo. So Instead I saw Joy/Disaster who had just made it there, and had not been able to play their own slot. They were excellent, as it turns out. As was Escape With Romeo.

    Also at this time? I did, in fact, manage to hunt me down a [info]macpain and his prettier half! :D It was so shiny to meet him finally. :D I love meeting my friends from the internets, after all :D

    They were not the only ones I ran into - I also ran into the German bloke from Summer Darkness who was the reason I woke up in den Haag more than once! XD it was nice to see him again, and no not like that you perverts.

    We watched Escape with Romeo together, and then I , I headed off to Agra - for here, there was X marks the Pedwalk to see. I saw one of my Spanish friends but unfortunately, my attempt to locate the rest of them failed. And I did see someone else but did not get a chance to talk to them before the show started... I had a decent spot on the left side of the stage and stayed there dancing for a few sons - unfortunately. however.. it was kinda.. underwhelming. Now don’t get me wrong, i like the music but.. something was missing. I think the venue was too big for them. Combine that with me feeling a bit tired, I went outside to have a few smokes and sit down and rest for Leather Strip.

    At this point, I hear a shout "Oi Finland!"" and who is it but if not my favourite tall not-so-dark-but-very-handsome German from my favourite German EBM outfit - Olaf form Tyske Ludder. We had a nice chat and I hope I did not make too much of an arse out of myself. It was established hat there are no Irish EBM fans and apparently I don’t count. (the fact that i had to actually seriously think about people who like actual EBM and not glow stick industrial did not help... Mythical creatures. Like unicorns. ) we talked about bands and stuff and who we were planning to see and had seen.. we apparently missed each other barely at Werk 2 because he was there for the original joy/disaster slot and did see Luxury Stranger whom I missed... Great minds think alike XD

    Never saw ‘em before, and maybe because of that, Leather Strip was fucking amazing. AMAZING. I didn’t mosh for most of the gig - I was happily dancing way further back because the moshtpit? Was a maelstrom of insane amounts of momentum and i was wearing way too many clothes. XD In the end, I did make it there for the encore and it nearly killed me XD (fun fact: I got thrown into someone I have met officially once when someone introduced us at last WGT, then at Nitzer Ebb when I was slammed into her in the mosh pit ,and now? again, pit slammage) had to tell her nope, no mutual friend. Boo. (Him not being there kind of annoyed me tbh - I missed someone to squeee to who appreciates the finer points of old school EBM) also, there were drunken loud Finns XD One of the best, if not the best gig at this fest - even if Claus did not come to the barrier at the end like I hoped so I could have given him the same treatment as I did to Andy laPlegua last year.

    After Leather Strip ended... I ran like the fucking WIND to Werk 2. Because gene Loved Jezebel had the late-ass set because they could in fact make it for 00.20. I missed about half of their show but it was still amazing <3 I enjoyed it a lot :D

    Eventually I staggered out. Did not see any nice Swiss people or nice German people who had said they'd be there... which was b00. but I made my way to When We Were young, where I.. kind of collapsed. but I enjoyed the music. XD Eventually, around 8 am, I staggered out and back to my accommodation via a hearty breakfast in town <3

    Sunday: More fun!

    After a quick bit of sleep, got dressed up again and headed out. (Black jeans, EBM 0- my way of life shirt) and made it to Parkbuhnen. Previous year, i got lost like crazy on my way there. this year? I was busy talking with my hosts about music until I realized I had to run to PB to make it. Now, it is only 10 minute walk or so, but I still missed the first few songs form La Magra... b00. They were quite good, and PB was hot as anything.

    I aided both Out of line and Black Rain merch stalls; got a couple of compilations including the big EBM comp that Out of line has just put out. I heartily recommend everyone to go grab this. From Black Rain, one of their album samplers ridiculously cheap.

    Up next was Future Trail, which was nice enough.. but the singer reminded me of Laura Voutilainen's Eurovision entry with her hair and yeah XD

    Lola Angst had a fucking ORGAN on stage and gets props for some of the best props - ha ha ha - at treffen. It was a fun gig, I did the whole bounce shriek fun fun fun thing and I enjoyed it a lot. After this, however, I evacuated to brave the scary lady in the toilets and by the time I wad out of there - epic queue is epic - it was Cephalgy on stage. Not bad, but not enough to keep me form wandering.

    I saw Olaf again and finally braved to ask him to recommend something for a synth n00b. His advice? fruityloops and a midi USB keyboard. This is something I will take into consideration. I also admitted that for the biggest EBM fan in Ireland I have been a fan for such an embarrassingly short time. My first EBM album, I got 3 years ago and thought it was shit. I still think the album is kind of shite but I love the band anyway. XD (FLA – FLAvor of the Weak for those who want to know) the appeal of Millennium to a metal head-originator was again mentioned and agreed on.

    I wandered off again, in search of my Spaniards. I probably as grinning like an idiot, seeing as I have that big epic crush on a certain someone that reduces me into a blushing 13 year old XD I got out, did not get lost on my way out! And then I ran to Kohlb... arghsomething zirkus. Did not find them, and got lost on my way to the damn venue. Which is embarrassing since i had been there the year before.. but alas, I had sucky directions that totally failed. But I did eventually make it there, ran in when S.P.O.C.K. came on stage with Spock's Brain playing. I ran into my Spaniards in the crowd, and had a GREAT time :D they had on superman costumes and they were so very, very FUN :D the crowd was crazy dancing shouting, laughing, throwing the Vulcan hand sign instead of the horns... I think this was probably one of the best, if not the best gig at WGT that I was at.

    Next stop: Colony 5 at the same venue. And damn if it was not fun! :D they are infectiously good and hard and fun. they would be easy to dismiss as "Covenant light" but come on, they are way better than that. And i quite enjoyed them.

    After Colony 5, I said goodbyes and ran off to see Modulate. Helped a cute Norwegian to get lost on he way there.. we were sot busy discussing the scene we missed the tram stop by miles. *FACEPALM* And Modulate...w ell, glow stick industrial really really REALLY Is not my cup of tea. Instead i wandered outside after I heard Skullfuck and then, wandered down the side to where they had an art installation.

    OH. MY: GOD: Seriously: IS pent more than an hour there going gaga at the art - gas masks, led lights, plastic plants and terminator-predator hybrids, themes of religion and death and argh I have NO WORDS! It was the single most amazing piece of art i have seen in a VERY long time accompanied by eerie industrial - and I do mean proper, oldschool, radiators and Latin chanting type industrial. the artists, Incestum, Nilz Böhne and Schwarwel were all amazing. here is a myspace linky for you: LOOK AT THE PHOTOS PEOPLE.

    I was down there until I realized "oh, this morn omina must be on stage" - i caught maybe half an hour of their show and it was pretty okay. Not my cup of tea. and I could not find a t-shirt for [info]elegy_of_flames :( However, I did buy myself an EBM - Old School t-shirt because dammit, I needed to defend myself from the glowsticks!

    Afterwards I found out that Diary of dreams -which was on at the same time as Modulate - and Welle: Erdball - which was on the smae time as TMO - were both epic and I should have been there… So I felt pretty blargh.

    I made my way to Agra where the one and only Alien Sex Fiend performed. (So I caught a good deal of Lacrimosa beforehand and talked with Finnish death rockers who wanted to know who I was and where I was from since they had never seen me in the scene.. lulz) i had a pretty good spot again on the left side for the start of it - for maybe 3, 4 songs I was right there in row 4 but then my legs started giving up on me. Boo. So I had to go and collapse. but that is one of the reasons I like Agra - even sitting on the ground at the back? I still saw a little bit, and I could hear everything in beautiful detail: My mates were right at the form and said it was fucking amazing <3

    After ASF, I actually was good and stumbled home - so ok I was there at 6 in the morning but still, that is a good time to go home without any after parties at WGT XD I just - felt so tired, you know?

    Monday: Oh hell not again

    Monday I got dressed in a gorgeous outfit involving black and white polka dots, a black skirt, my new Old school EBM shirt and lots of nice accessories. then, off to Parkbuhenen I went.

    I made it plenty in time for Golden apes and met with the Swiss contingent again. Yay! However, what happened was that there was a bit of rain. Like, whole lot of rain. So in the end i was dancing practically alone in front of the stage loving every moment of the band while being effectively in a shower. As far as I was concerned? I just had to run back to change before I went off. XD and, there is a photo of jsut HOW soaked I was - to the core, pretty much. Dripping wet and looking like a drowned kitten!"

    Which I did, after I said my byes, and then ran off to see Kitty in a Casket - horror punk, and again, an amazing show at Werk ii. We are talking energetic, lovely, shiny music that just had me go all bouncebouncebouncebounce. And buy a badge and tell them they rock :D Their music was.. Infectious. I especially love their songs Zombie wannabe and Space Invaders. Besides, any band with full size upright bass on stage gets instant win points :D

    After this, I headed off to Agra. Plan was, grab a quick bite to eat, shop a little, go see.. something. this ended up with: Shop - I bought goggles. GOGGLES. I feel dirty now.. and a few CDs and badges. (more compilations from Out of line, and two nice button badges. Siouxsie and FLA) then it was food,.. did I mention I lived on crepes for most of this fest? Mm, cinnamon and sugar crepe… also, I could actually order my food in German most of the time. this is progress! :D

    I was going to run for something like Genevieve Pasquier or – well, something. Instead i ate in peace, got cherry wine and cheese, and ate some more before I went back to Werk 2 for Ghoultown.

    My first impression? Johnny Cash doing speed with the cult. Revised impression: Johnny Cash doing speed with the cult with the Nephs and WASP passed out on the floor. Seriously - these guys were fucking AMAZING. They had a great sound, lots of energy, and they were unashamedly Texan. :D It took me a while to pick out the WASP influence -the rest was much easier to hear - but Killer in Texas made me immediately think Blind in Texas and it clicked. Did I mention these guys were damn hot, too? I had never heard of them until I was told on twitter they were shiny and damn, this was the best spur of the moment band selection I have doen in AGES.

    Next stop was supposed to be the Klinik and then nurse with wound but.. guess who lost her wallet?= yeaah. *Sigh* this SUCKED SO HARD THERE ARE NO WORDS FOR IT. Instead I watched some of the Creepshow and eventually in the end, moped my way to Moritzbastei where I met my friends. Took a quick break at a friend's place to recuperate and get a bit more human with the help of food, coffee and cigarettes and then back to Moritzbastei.

    I ran into the cute glowsticky Norwegian again! :D I now owe him drinks when he's over here in Dublin - I am amazed anyone would like to come here but... XD I had a great time in this after party, I did not dance, I was slowly getting into the body = broken mode but I enjoyed just sitting down, watching people pass by and soaking in the music – both the thumpy noise and all the else that was going on.

    Eventually stumbled home in the morning and slept.

    then got up a few hours later, settled myself out, caught a train to Berlin, read a good book on the train, panicked about money, met up with [info]k1mm0 for a drink and a hug and how-are-you and then went back to the hostel to die... after having mcD's at Checkpoint Charlie. I found this to be highly ironic....

    This morning, I got up, got cleaned up, went to the airport marvelling at how fucking beautiful Berlin is- was there for such a brief time and barely saw any of it but.. it is so gorgeous. No wonder so many of my friends want to live there.... then at the airport+

    the security goon complimented the EBM t-shirt I wore, asked i was at Leipzig, said his GF had been there and said ASF was awesome and asked if I liked Nitzer ebb, and said he'd see me back for M’era luna. XD

    One flight that was late later, i am now back in Dublin.

    Can it be WGT2011 already? XD
  • Losing my touch....

    25 mars 2010, 18h07m

    You know what is a problem? When I stare at the screen, looking at a slot of time in specific length, and I can't see songs flowing there.

    I'm familiar with wirter's block. Now, I sdon't suppose DJ block is the right word for this, seeing as this is not really DJing jsut fucking around and wondering what can be done - but it feels the same. a terrifying choking thing on the back of your mind saying "this is ungood"

    i am trying ot push, push, push myself through until I can have something - but it is not working. this is making mwe feel.. ungood. in several ways. but i don't know really. *sigh*

    I suspect paart of it is because I wam not, in fact, able to tell when i am on again. and have no specific plans. last time I had a date and also an idea of what to do - now? none of that. I feel - aimless. And it is making even things I can do at home seem pointless..

    aport of me is thinking, I have already done everything I can ont aht front, how much more cabn I do jsut byu stiringing songs together at home? and the rest of me is going ".. you fail. go away" because there is an infinite amount of combinations I can look at, listen to, and see if they work.

    I think a big problem is my inability to access my own music colelction right now. I am way too ued to being able to acces severything at a click when I am wither lying in bed or at my desk at wqork. TO know what is where how long and all that beauty. yeah it is harder when I have jsut CDs - but when I am at work? can't wevenm access those. this site does give me some leeway but i cannot HEAR everything.

    I think this is highlighting the fact that once the plan for Casa Crazy happens and I start having abit of extra money - equipment of my own is in order., yes, that is how serious I Have gottena bout this int he past year and a half. from "oh that was fdun" to... well, to the point wherew I want my own equipment and i want to be SERIOUS about this. I figure, afeter 18+ months?= it is not going to be jsut a phase. it's going to be, if not aprofession or a lifelong obsession, at least a long-term hobby that requyires commitment. Fuick, my CD collection probably testifies towards that too ....

    So what is the point of this ramble?

    I ffeel like I am losing my touch. and it is .. scaring me :(