Open Wounds ~ Skillet

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMUNCYcsQQY

"YOU CAN'T STOP ME FROM FALLING APART, CUZ MY SELF-DESTRUCTION IS ALL YOUR FAULT…!"

It's funny how someone can have a quick normal talk with me, and then once they leave the room, no less than a second later, I fall apart into tears. This day, this week, this month, this year… I feel like I'm having a mental breakdown. Granted, I had to pull an all-nighter last night to get some crap done, which no doubt screwed up my head. But honestly, every other day isn't that much different. I'm just… done with life.…

Teardrop ~ Massive Attack

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7K72X4eo_s&ob=av2e

Today marks the final episode of House, MD… ever. If you know anything about House, you'll know why I chose this song. Anyway, this is a monumental part of my life; I only wish I could have done a status like this for when Lost ended over 2 years ago. But I digress. Anyway, this being the last episode of House that will ever be made, I felt it deserved some kind of recognition. For other true House fans, I’m sure you understand. Basically, in a couple minutes or so, I and the millions of…

Teardrop ~ Massive Attack

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7K72X4eo_s&ob=av2e

Today marks the final episode of House, MD… ever. If you know anything about House, you'll know why I chose this song. Anyway, this is a monumental part of my life; I only wish I could have done a status like this for when Lost ended over 2 years ago. But I digress. Anyway, this being the last episode of House that will ever be made, I felt it deserved some kind of recognition. For other true House fans, I’m sure you understand. Basically, in a couple minutes or so, I and the millions of…

Lose You ~ Pete Yorn

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zyUXLzKWxLs

Hey everybody. I know, i know I haven't posted in like a month. Life has been terrible lately. It sucks, but… I just gotta get by the best I can. This song doesn't describe my feelings today at all, but I just… I don't know. It seemed appropriate, and yet not. Because I don't want to in no way lose him. But.. just the solemn nature of the song brought back memories of us for some reason.. which makes literally no sense because we both love rock. But, you can't control the painful flashbacks,…

A Day to be Alone ~ One Less Reason (wrong song link, you'll have to watch the video, which is btw from a good movie, "Hero Wanted")

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6-hlX3oBUI

"All those screams inside somehow they come out in a smile, and I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way…"

This song is the one I always come back to.. it's basically the definition of my life. To my friends and family, its not. No one knows about how depressed I am, just my journals. They don't judge, and if any people that comment do, hell… I have no idea…

Drowning (Face Down) ~ Saving Abel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQC5Ub6eYEI

Wow… March already. Jesus… this year has gone by painfully slow, and yet… here we are. And here I am, still in the same horrible existence since last year. My life was great until about May last year… then it all turned to crap. And now I'm here, drowning. And yet, no one understands how hard it is for me to "reach for when I'm lying face down." Each time I'm able to pick myself off the floor, it's by myself, but then he just comes back over and knocks me down again.…

Big City Lights ~ Black Stone Cherry

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-1-k6HWc0Mk

Hey everybody, it's Leap Day! Whoopee. For the past two days I have slept next to none, so I have no idea why I'm doing one of these instead of sleeping, but for those that read these things (my one commenter a few days ago, thank you! i plan on responding to that comment soon… like i said, i've been having a rough week), I'm sure you'll appreciate it. :)

Anyhoo, this song has been in my head for a few days now; it's called "Big City Lights" by Black Stone Cherry.…

Where Is the Love? ~ Black Eyed Peas

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FotCW5OIFZc

Just wondering where the love is lately between my guy and I.. I feel there is something, but we've suppressed it. I know he wants to say what he feels about me… I know it. Lately, I see him, and all he says to me is my name, over and over and over again. I have no idea why. Any ideas? Because I'm clueless. Wait, WAIT!? Epiphany. One time, like a year ago (when our relationship was much more stable), he was doing the same thing… except I'd say his name…

Bright Lights
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVktnMK8Eas

Sorry, if anyone actually reads this, I skipped a few days. Life gets in the way. Anyways, today's song is by one of my favorite bands, Matchbox 20, and in said band is one of my favorite artists, Rob Thomas! I have no idea why, but I find Rob Thomas to be so freakin' adorable<3 So… yeah. The song's called "Bright Lights" and its basically about a girl that goes to the city to make something of herself, and she leaves her boyfriend to go there in the process. The boyfriend thinks that she won't be able…

The Freshman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hxe85iErew

This song brings back loads of memories.. Today was a day for reflection. A lotta time to just… think. Reminds me of a quote i saw once, "If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present". Couldn't be more true. I always look back at my mistakes, and then look at the future and worry about what new mistakes i'll make. Or I'll look back at the good times, get depressed about the fact that…