I'm making up for the last 2 weeks of disappearance guys. I have
this hacking cough which just sort of takes over every time I try
and sing. One of those things I guess. Just want you to know, the
songs are ready and waiting. Hoping to release 3 this Tuesday if
all looks good on the vocal front :) Thanks for sticking by me
So I am starting work a little later today. Working on a song
called Creeping at the moment. Need to finish it up, still a bunch
of beat programming to get into and other nonsense. It's definitely
a fun song. Just got the master to Snake in the Road today which
will be released today as well and it sounds great! Phew!
One of my closest friend's mother died this morning and it's
definitely affecting me. We were extremely close as families
growing up. Our parents knew each other right around when they got
married. So we grew up together. Both of their parents have died
about a year apart from each other. It's just incredibly difficult.
It was a brain cancer.
So I had to get up at 7am today and somehow pull myself out
of bed to finish up this song today. Last minute as usual for me.
The lyrics have been very difficult. It's sort of a cryptic song
which is the hardest thing. Writing about a few things at once,
personal and universal, and looking for patterns within the words.
Every song has a strange geometry to it and it takes time to land
upon the shape of it.
So I had to get up at 7am so my voice would be ready around
11a to sing some last tidbits.
So I am pulling another rather late night. We just finished
the mix for Helium which I am releasing tomorrow. Things are always
down to the wire lately and I have to get a bit ahead because all
this last minute stuff is making me a little crazy. But I am happy
we took some extra time with Helium, it's much better for it. Going
to get the song mastered at 6am by Nick Moon up in Oregon. He's
going to studio super early to make it happen - which I am very
Mixing has been interesting lately. I am working with Chris
Testa, who has been great. He's done a bunch of stuff with a lot of
really cool artists including Jimmy Eat World, Mat Kearney, Paul
Simon, Glen Philips, and the Dixie Chicks. It's been a different
process for me. I am not in the mixing room at all anymore, just
give notes on the mixes that I get emailed to me on my computer. I
think it works out better in the end this way. I usually nit pick
things to death and sometimes wonder if I am ruining the mix in the
end. We often used to do too much back and forth. So this way is
working out better so far. Less energy and better results I think.
It's easy to get lost mixing a song when you wrote and played
most of the instruments on it. You often want to hear all your hard
work instead of listening to the song and following your ear. I
just don't have enough objectivity at the end of producing a track.
I don't think most artists should be in the mixing room actually
for precisely that reason. It becomes more about ego than the song
a lot of times. Takes an entirely different mentality.
I have a ton of lyrics to plow through this week, which is
always super super hard for me. I am always staring at a wall at
multiple points during the day, praying for divine inspiration. My
lyric writing has changed a lot more this year though. The process
is much more wrapped around the piano. I tend to play the song up
to a hundred times until I finish the words. Let it come out
organically, rather than sit at a coffee shop with pen and paper. I
used to spend days at Starbucks trying to put a jigsaw puzzle
together basically. Now, it's more around what comes out of my
mouth in the moment and following that thread. I like this way a
lot more. I think it took a while for me to get my mind out of
things and let the subconscious take over - which is happening more
and more with the songs. I am working hard to think less and less
and play more and more.
Much more fun that way too.
I wrote a few strange dance numbers today that will probably
never see the light of day today. I am still playing around with
lots of dance beats, trying to find a way in. Determined to. I
definitely don't want to try and write something that Britney would
sing. It's more about finding out how I relate to the dance beat
and what it brings out in me. Have some really cool ideas, it's
just a matter of finding the melodies that stick at the moment.
Then I can start doing some cool melding of genres etc that I
really want to do.
I am toying with the idea of traveling a bit and working with
some musicians outside of Los Angeles. I really want to do it,
hopefully late fall or in the winter. We shall see.
It's funny at the moment. I have a whole bunch of songs that
sort of express whole different sides of me, different genre wise
as well. It was freaking me out a little bit, because I wasn't sure
how they related to each other per se. But doing this project has
freed me up a lot. I don't have to worry about the cohesiveness of
an album as much. I can deliver things more stream of conscious
like. That has helped a lot creatively and kept things interesting
for me too. Each project requires a whole new set of tools. I have
to be quick on my feet.
Anyway. I am watching Galaxy Quest while waiting for the
final mix at the moment. I love the movie. I think because I am a
closet Trekkie. Not a huge one. but I did love The Next Generation
growing up and Voyager. There is something ridiculous and wonderful
about it all.
I'm pretty tired at the moment. Just finished my legwork on
Helium for the mixer tomorrow. Had to add a bunch of background vox
and it took a bit to get things working. Spent a lot of the day
working on some new music. I've been getting more and more into
electro-rock and even techno. Really want to see where I can take
that world. It's been an experiment. Working with various beats and
dance synths. We'll see where it goes. Might never see the light of
day or it could be a whole new thing :)
Other than that. I am going to spend my remaining 30 minutes
before bed having a beer and eating cottage cheese. For some weird
reason I decided to watch Return to OZ. Don't ask why. I remembered
that scene where she has to find her friends that were changed into
inanimate objects. She had like 3 chances or something to pick the
right objects. Anyway. I felt like watching it :) Very
It's been a bit of time again since I've blogged. It gets
hard for me to do this for some reason. The process has been tough
and challenging of late. I'm dealing with a lot of songs that are
almost there. It's like 7 or 8 of them and I think I am just
dealing with some fear of finishing. It's a normal thing. And I
have to push through. It's the point of this whole project really.
To push beyond my fear of letting things go.
Fucking With Your Flow was something that really took a lot
out of me that last 2 weeks. I felt like I was wringing a rag as
tight as I could to get the last few drops of water out. There is
that creative well that you can't just expect to supply exactly
what you need all the time. Making something is tricky - it's never
logical. It rarely comes when you want it to. And sometimes you
have to roll with the punches, even if you aren't sure if you are
going to get exactly what you think you want. I think the whole
thing is - you have to be willing to jump into an abyss when you
are being creative. You have to wander. And a lot of times, I like
to decide what a song is before I've recorded it. So there is this
whole process of unlearning the song so I can get to the end. And
that's where things can get painful.
I need to do something that has nothing to do with music that
is more than just watching a movie or drinking a beer at home :) I
need to refill the creative well somehow and I am not sure what
that is yet. I am also really wanting to start some new fitness
regimen. I like doing things dramatically - if you can't tell :)
And I like taking on really big fitness goals too. Was thinking
about doing some sort of boot camp thing - cause I've never done
anything like it. Really need a stress release that is healthy and
positive. Things have been very tense with the work load and my
constant mental back and forth with the songs.
I am working on a song called Helium at the moment. I've had
it for a long time. More than a year actually. And I have all the
lyrics and almost all of the music ready to go. It's just that I
still have to track my final vocal and I am shying away from it.
Which always gets me into trouble. Vocals always take a bit to get
into. You can't just expect it to come in an hour. Sometimes it
does and you expect that it should always be that way. But it's
always when you think it shouldn't be a problem when it bites you
in the ass.
I need to just sing though :) at the end of the day I feel
the song is there ready to be brought out. I just have to let it go
and be what it wants to be.
The promotion angle has been getting to me pretty hard. I
really want the music to get out there and there is some sort of
block with that. Not sure exactly what it is. Honestly. There is a
hesitation that I have always had to present my work to the world.
I always tend to hold back. I really love making music and I hate
having to deal with the public at large. There are many times when
I wish I had someone to help take care of the whole mess and do it
really well. That someone could sort of just magically fix it. But
the real issue is that I am holding back. If I am honest. I am
holding back from letting people to really see the music. Still
sorting that one out.
What else? My dogs are the best thing. Every day they are
just happy to see me, and having a ball. And it always brings me
back to center. They are the biggest stress release.
Anyway. I should get back to Helium. Wish me luck. Sending
It's been a bit of time since I've been writing. I think in
large part because of the work load lately. I have been working to
develop 2 rather large batches of songs - totally different genres
from each other as well. And also juggling mixing some older
tracks. It's just a lot and I am a bit ragged at the moment. I
think the hardest part is the picture part for each song - because
I am holed up in my little studio all day and don't feel sexy at
But things are lovely.
We have a show this Saturday that I am excited about. Working
to just play all new material - which I know pisses people off
sometimes. I think it's exciting though. It's a very creative
state. The songs are germinating in front of your eyes :) They
often take a different shape in studio but I really like the idea
of starting them out with a pure live band arrangement and then
expanding from there. At least that is my kick at the moment.
The songs that I have been writing lately are much more low
key than most of the stuff I have released so far. More subdued and
quirky. I love them and can't wait to get them finished. Part of me
feels like I have to write a new chorus for all of them, and the
other side likes that they are different beasts and I shouldn't
We shall see...
Was up till 4am doing a last minute re-mix to Caroline. We
got the master back and I wasn't happy with it at all. So I had
someone else do it. We mastered again but figured out that the mix
itself had issues. Paul was at a dinner, so I had to drag him over
around 10pm and we didn't stop for about 6 hours. It was a bit
rough, but we got it done, and sent it off for the new mastering
guy to re-master it again this morning. I cut it EXTREMELY close.
So basically I had Caroline mastered 3 times. Yes... I have a
problem :) But it was a big improvement. There were dynamics in
that song that were rather complicated.
Right now we are finally finishing mixing a song called The
Outsider. It's a very contemplative song. It puts me in a very
thoughtful state. It's very pretty, there's a little typewriter
beat, synths mixed with a live band... the production ideas are
similar to Caroline actually - but it's a totally different beast.
It's sort of this idea of mixing a heavy electronic landscape with
a really rock oriented White Stripes-ish sort of band.
Both songs were recorded in one take with drums and bass. The
guys played together and just killed it. So it has this very
organic feel within a very electronic landscape. It was an exciting
thing to watch develop.
The Outsider will be out next week
Okay. Now to finish up this mix and get some sleep!!!!
Hoping to see some of you this weekend at the show.
So tired :)
whisked away to Lake Tahoe for a beautiful and romantic
wedding. Finally got to meet my lovely goddaughter - which really
was just magic. And even managed to get a hike in and enjoy some
finally got back today.
Time to get back to it. Needed some input after so much
output. It's really important to get out of your space and see life
in perspective. If even for 2 nights :)
Got to do pictures tomorrow. Going to release 2 songs on
Tuesday. Look out!
Well it's been a few days since I've written here :) Things
are going really well. I hit a little roadblock with some of the
songs but I think we are almost in the clear. Right now I am
searching for the perfect clavichord. I figure if it's good enough
for Stevie Wonder, then it's good enough for me. Don't you wish
your last name was something awesome like that? Sacha Fabulous or
Sacha Spectacular... Sort of makes me feel like a cirque du soleil
act/superhero or something... maybe not.
I have a wedding to attend up in Lake Tahoe for the weekend.
Which I am both excited for and a little nervous about. I don't
like being away from an instrument for too long - especially with
my new creative mandate. I might bring an acoustic guitar with me,
but planes can be spotty about that sort of thing. Get to see all
my friends and their new babies. It seems everyone is having babies
or getting married the last few years... and I don't feel ANY peer
I think we are going to release Cocky next. It's sort of a
different little song, has a retro feel, a bit glam actually and I
want to start releasing some of the more electronic, futuristic
music I have been hounding on. Ready to show another shade. So
we'll cap it off with Cocky and show something new in July.
The hardest thing lately has been trying to promote the music
while creating. It's always an impossible feat to do both
simultaneously. And it seems I am always caught in purgatory.
It's so easy to feel the grass is greener on the other side
and all that. Like U2 or Lady Gaga have it made. They just get to
be all creative and have a 1 ton gorilla to take care of their
promotional needs. Soooo not true though. I know it. But you can't
help but feel that at times.
For some reason this video came to mind. Maybe because I am
determined to have it all :)
I felt it was time to do a "Sacha on
piano" song and get back to basics. We sort of randomly recorded
this song one night when we were supposed to be doing something
else. Just got on the piano and pressed record. Hope you enjoy it!
Did you know that my music video to
"Used," hit #1
this week on LOGO's "Click List!?" Really exciting stuff!
Thanks again so much for taking the
time to put in your vote every week. It's amazing that so
many made the effort. And I definitely love you for it.
Please help keep me at #1! Vote here :)
I'll be playing live at M Bar on July 10th in Los Angeles.
Be there! :)
And finally... I just wanted to break it down for a sec and
a really big bear hug to all of you who are buying the
songs, emailing me supportive notes, and even donating more than
the $1 per song. It really means so so so so much - especially with
everything so hectic as it is with the Viscera project.
With everything online and streaming and instant and in
your face. Just the fact that you are tuning into what I do, is
such a huge blessing. I couldn't do this without your love and
support. So I just want to just say THANK YOU REALLY LOUDLY for all
the positive energy you have been sending my way :) You are amazing
and beautiful. And I appreciate you all so so much.
I hope this finds you all in bright spirits!
Things are lovely here. It's getting time to get to
recording again tonight! Been practicing on my beat making skillz
and am excited to show the results of my latest experiment in the
coming months :) Wish me LUCK! It's definitely something new